But unexpected factors inevitably derail my plans. Like Drix Seger—attractive and the first genuine sadist I’ve encountered. If I were not in the process of renouncing my masochistic ways and becoming the normal, responsible potential father the adoption agency wants to see, Drix and I might do well together.
But he has a foolish name and belongs to a cult of vampyres, and I am quitting kink. So why does Drix’s infatuation with blood and biting make me so hot I can’t think straight? And why, when he looks at me, does he seem to see something beyond a basket case with a stick up my ass?
Can I start a new phase in my life without leaving part of myself behind? Please send help.
I consider myself a #TeamPain enthusiast so I was STOOOOOKED to read this one. I lean toward impact play pain rather than chemical or edgeplay pain which is Miles' preference. What I'm loving so much about this series is the humanizing of kink J.A. is doing. I think many people tend to think of BDSM as something that weird or damaged people engage in and all of these guys are sympathetic characters with every day problems and worries.
Miles is Mos Def in a Mr. Rogers cardigan for Pete's sake! There's nothing freakish about him, though he does struggle with reconciling being a masochist with being a father. Miles has made the decision to adopt and believes his kinky time has to come to an end because he can't be a masochist AND a father. Can he? Miles is exceedingly intelligent; he a business owner at 27 and to quote the great Ferris Bueller...
Replace 'Cameron' with Miles and you get the idea.
Miles is a spinner. He takes something and flips it over so many times until he becomes paralyzed with fear of making the wrong decision. So, yeah, insecure control freak perfectionist. *shrugs* We all have our crosses to bear, eh? Along comes all 6'7" of Drix into Miles' store and sparks fly. He turns out to be the yin to Miles' yang; he has the ability to throw a wrench in those spin outs. They work.
Ironically, Drix reminds me quite a lot of Kamen only he's a sadist. Kamen, the one Miles shuts down and discounts on the regular! This amused me to no end. Drix is a vampyre and a PI which sends Miles into a judgmental tailspin or maybe a boomerang since he realizes he's being a supercilious asshat and apologizes.
Drix does have sadistic tendencies and enjoys blood. Because VAMPYRE! But he has no practical BDSM experience, so a long time play partner named Bowser (ginger lumbersexual & Dr. Sadist *growls*) agrees to mentor him. There are a couple of ménage scenes just so you know. And, p.s., I found Bowser intriguing and it occurred to me during the reading of this that I would like to begin a campaign for a spin off series called The Doms Strike Back. Who's with me?
As I was saying...
When Drix agrees to learn how to be the kind of sadist that can give Miles what he needs that spoke volumes about his character to me and center punched me right in the feels. They both mold to fit the other because they are so enamored of the other, but their road does have a couple potholes. Miles has never been in a relationship with or loved his play partners until Drix and he finds that what he thought he needed no longer holds as much appeal as being in the moment and sharing the experience with someone he cares about. It's kind of freeing for him and enlightening.
Can we just gather round the camp fire and talk about the face melting sex? JAYSUS!!!!!!! My BRer, Adam, and I were PMing about our feels and my response to one scene in the back of an SUV was simply: *honk honk*. Rendered me speechless.
He made me want to fuck loudly and messily, while I was crying or scared or delirious with joy.
The kinky sex gets progressively more intense as their relationship develops and Drix puts his education to practice which begs the question of how in the sweet name of Baby Jeebuz Miles thinks he's going to give up kink in just a few short months when his adoption hopefully comes through? The kid is pretty adorbs though so maybe.
Miles' family, the other subs in the club, the evolution of The Subs Club and the process of adoption by a single parent rounded out the story nicely. I feel like I know Miles now; he's not just a tight ass. He's an insecure tight ass with a big heart and some poor communication skills who loves his friends more than he can say and needs a hug. A lot of them. Speaking of hugs...
I'm coming for you, honey bunches a'oats.
Still loving the stuffing out of this series.
An ARC was provided by NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
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